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19/7

2010-07-19T22:02:00.003+08:00

I missed the council dinner on sat. Because of NDP, I have missed my class outing and council dinner. I think I will miss the Sunway Lagoon outing also. I miss all my friends :( Nvm, after NDP will be ORDing soon. Can't wait to come out :) I'm inspired by the 9pm show no limits! jia you jia you jia you!

2010-06-28T20:52:00.001+08:00

this week is quite a gd week for me. I pass my TP! yay! The testor was late for half an hour and so he gave me an easy route plus I did not do parallel parking. Anyway, I am so happy that I passed!

Had NDP rehearsal. I did the full run for this week because my driver was injured and so I followed the main vehicles. I think it is much better than to be a reserve. My toe was hit by a fire extinguisher as I was unloading the stuff.

Other than that, nothing much this week.

bad week

2010-06-20T03:18:00.003+08:00

It has been a terrible week for me. On Wednesday, I went for NDP recce. We finished at 1330 and they dumped us at Kallang Leisure Park with no transport. There was no cab there. We ended up taking MRT and reached Lot 1 at 0030. We then walked all the way to teck whye macs for supper. Finally we booked, in at 0130

The next day, I went to eat breakfast at the OM. Hongyi, Aaron and I wore headdress on our way. However, on the way back, CO saw a few of the new specs not wearing headdress. He sent an email to 2IC and CSM. As we forgot to wear headdress back, we were punished together with the rest of them even though we did not get caught.

Yesterday(saturday), I went for NDP rehearsal at Kallang. It was super boring. There were long waiting hours. Worst, I guided a vehicle and it hit the tree branch. The antenna broke. As we were going back, my vehicle hit another tree branch and the top metal piece was a bit dented.

Conclusion: I had a bad week. Pray everything will only be better and I must pass my TP next week!

2 wk post

2010-05-27T21:35:00.002+08:00

I forgot to post last week. There was range for us. We did not get marksman but it does not matter because it is too difficult to get it. Then there was ATP the following day where we helped out. On Sunday, there was NDP reahearsal. It was really hot and boring. I did not do anything at all. It was just eat and sleep, particularly since I watched Champion's League the night before and lacked sleep.

There was IPPT this week for Hongyi. He was doing quite well until he tripped over a stone and sprain his ankle. We celebrated Jared's bday on Tuesday. He was quite happy I think. Then I went to Harold's mum's wake today. It was quite sad for me because I have known her for quite some time. She is a very nice person and always buy food for me when I visit. Not to forget the free car rides that I have taken in her car. Hope she can rest well in Heaven and may his family be blessed with good health.

NDP reahearsal again on Sunday. :(

long week

2010-05-15T18:58:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday, my brother organized a bbq to celebrate his gf's birthday. It was quite weird that he invited his uni friends instead. Anyway, I think we had quite a good time though the food was not very good. My brother opened his bottle of vodka but his friends did not drink much.

I had MA at jurong medical centre on Monday. I was discharged by the doctor.

There was coms trial on tuesday. The weather was very hot and all of us were sunburnt. The lunch was delicious. It's this indonesian grilled chicken or fish with egg and rice.

On wednesday, I received the call from MOE that they could not award me the overseas scholarship. It was expected but I was still disappointed. There ends my hopes of studying overseas. I went to eat burger king at west mall and then we went bowling at westwood bowl. I had no mood for bowling and just threw the ball anyhow. I tried spinning but I think I have no talent.

On thursday, the cookhouse served its best dinner!

On friday, we booked out early, at 2.10pm. Went to watch Ip Man 2. It is a very nice show :). I bought toto hoping to strike 5 million. Well, at least I zong 20 dollars.

Today, I was supposed to eat kuishinbo but joshua didnt want to so we ate at ambush instead. I ate Rostis and bockwurst, which is pork sausage. It is nice but not filling. After that, we went to play mahjong at Joshua's house. I won 5 tai on the last game so I think I won overall though we didnt play money. Joshua's house is big but old. We ate this fruit cake his mother baked which was really nice.

ORD week

2010-05-07T15:42:00.002+08:00

This week has not been a very unlucky week for me. On thursdaay, there was an MP raid. I was caught with two pirated DVDs in my drawer. I was shocked that the penalty is worse than bringing a camera handphone into camp. Anyway, I will accept my punishment. Hope that its not too bad. As I told Carolyn, if the world is unfair, I will try to make it fair. I am not going to blame anyone, even god for this bad luck. Instead I am trying to bring myself good luck. Also, I will try to change. For a start, I brought my DVD player home. I will try to be a good boy from now on.

Other than that, this week was ORD week, not for me but for the our senior batch, the one I am closest to. Its a bit sad to see them go but I know that they have served their time and its ORD for them. Wish them good luck. I was quite sad that my PC is leaving. He has been a very nice friend to me.

I think Ching Wan is a very interesting person. He saves nearly all his money and does not even want to spend money on food. He is also a very secretive person. He likes to do things and not let people see. Anyway I think he has his virtues but he needs to enjoy life a bit too. If not, he is really missing out on the good things in life, as James says. I shall try to understand him better and coax him to 'enjoy more.

I also took my IPPT on Tuesday. It was very tiring. My stomach ached from the sit ups and its still aching now. I was a bit disappointed that I ran only 8.59 but I know that this is an acceptable timing since I have not been training. 200 Dollars in the pocket.

Hope that I will have GOOD LUCK soon. Thanks :)

a new start!

2010-05-02T22:09:00.002+08:00

It has been quite long since I last blogged. I decided to start again to write down my thoughts and feelings. I received a wonderful surprise on Wed when my army friends celebrated my brithday for me. It was then that I realized that what I needed in my life is actually my friends who will always be there for me. THANKS TO ALL OF YOU WHO MADE MY DAY :g )

I went out on my birthday with my platoon. We played bowling in the morning. I had a bit of birthday luck in the first round. I got quite a good score of 120 but the luck worn out in the rest of the games and I averaged 80+. After that we watched Iron Man 2. I never watch the first episode and I kind of fell asleep during the long show and missed the most exciting part when they were fighting. Vince, Hon yang and I went to eat dinner and then we had waffle with ice cream at 313. We had a long chat about our lives then. It was quite a wonderful day.

I went to IMM with my parents today. My mother and I were resting outside a shop when she suddenly saw a man drop a note. She asked me how much it was. I look at the note. It was one which I had never seen before with a lot of zeros so I said it was RMB. She alerted the man and he picked his note up. We then realized we were 1k poorer. On the way back, I accidentally knocked into a girl carrying a balloon while crossing the road and the balloon fell out of her hand and flew away. I was quite paiseh and felt really bad for the girl. My parents and I had dinner at the usual zi char place. I realize that this place holds a lot of memories for me and I will always remember the different people that I visit this place with and things that happen here. Thats all for the week :).

Thanks for all the birthday wishes, friends and family :)

160110

2010-01-16T18:16:00.002+08:00

I don't know if I should be doing this but these thoughts keep occupying my mind. Maybe I should just do it. It could be a great start to the year. I think I have accomplished much during my 1ntm week.

Remember December!

2009-12-27T21:08:00.002+08:00

This december is a pretty interesting one, full of ups and downs.

There was the 4extras I received from Encik before I went on my awesome trip to Bali. Though it was a short trip, I truly enjoyed myself. I totally forgot about army and my life, especially the unhappy moments here in Singapore. Perhaps that is why I enjoyed myself so much. I also found another person whom I can clique with-- Giraffe. Not to forget the people like Nick and Jevon whom I can communicate quite well with.

The specs of my batch has really bonded quite well. In contrast to the IC1 and 2 cliques we had when we first entered, we are now one big group and closer which is good since we have 11mths more to spend together. Most memorable was our trip to ION for the 50% sale. The items were priced from $400 to $700(hee hee).

I had two mahjong sessions in Dec, one at Rold's house(he moved house le) and one with my bro and his swensens' friends(my friends too:D). Though I lost money for both sessions, I still enjoyed myself since I have not played mahjong for quite long.

There was the class gathering yesterday. I like 3F. We are not a particularly fun class. We are not that sporty. We mug a lot. We don't really do crazy things. We don't always go out together. We are not super super close(at least not everyone). But beyond all these, I see friends. Friends whom I can talk to, who really understand me and are on the same wavelength as me. There are people whom I am really close to, even girls. Perhaps that is why I like 3F and the class gathering was great.

There was the 27ths outing at Sentosa just now. There was a lot of waiting. The councillors are a very diverse batch of people. There are many people in many different cliques. I don't really have any particular clique 'cept my house D but they are usually not present. I can only talk well to some people in some of the cliques. I am sometimes lost in their conversations. But this group of people really make my life interesting. There is always so much activities going on. Therefore I have lots of fun. Also, some people just returned from overseas so its a good chance to catch up with them. Anyway I think they would really widen my social network now and in the future which is really good too.

As you can see, Dec is a really good mth. Though I still can't really forget you, the future has much to hold for me. Perhaps I can step out of my shadow in the near future:D

2009-10-03T23:22:00.002+08:00

It feels so good just to live for yourself and not care about what others think of you. Living under the expectations of others just puts you under tremendous stress and I think that is why people crack.

This week has been an enjoyable week. Went to Wow Wow Wet on thurs for 2sig anniversary, cage for soccer today and council gathering after that. :)

2009-09-20T18:02:00.001+08:00

I am going to be a new me!

2009-06-27T00:58:00.002+08:00

Why do people act in a certain way? Is it controlled by their brains, emotions or body? There are instances when people perform miracles, e.g. surviving under the ruins of a collapsed building for days. There are other instances where people do things that defy all logic such as attempting to do dangerous stunts that could risk their lives. Then again, people do stupid things like start wars, commit suicide etc. So why do people choose to do things in such a certain way? Sometimes, I am really amazed/appalled/horrified/surprised at how I react and act. Common sense would tell myself that I am being stupid by doing it yet I would still act in such a way. Am I driven by emotions? Am I just plain dumb? Or perhaps I just want to be different, to try new things and reactions which I have never tried before. Ok I give up, I am too complex for myself to understand. I shall just continue being myself then. stupid or smart, I am me. :D

2009-06-21T19:43:00.002+08:00

However hard I try, I can only be second best in everything I do. Its a bit demoralizing but I should be happy that at least I have some degree of success. I shall be contented with what I have then. In the meantime, its back to my brainless stupid life where I do stupid things. Things like drawing ambigrams during lessons (I think I have become quite good at it, my name can be drawn as an ambigram too :D), listening to mp3 during lesson, and talking a lot of cock, especially to my course sgt(haha). Its still quite a while before I leave the army so in the meantime I shall just continue doing stupid stuff

2009-05-22T08:19:00.003+08:00

在人生的道路中，你往往不能心享事成，所以当你心享事成时，你会特别的快乐，这就是人生的美吧！

2009-05-02T16:55:00.001+08:00

resigned to fate

25/04/08

2009-04-25T15:30:00.002+08:00

terrible week. I think i failed to achieve my resolution. haha spewwed quite a lot of vulgarities in the last few days of the week. er i think u would do that too if you were me, luck hasnt been on my side. got slashed by sog out of the blue. wonder if i can survive gs nxt wk. shallnt elaborate on my other misfortuneS. wouldnt mind gettin a fever now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

17/4/09

2009-04-17T17:46:00.003+08:00

i just made up my mind that i am going to refrain from speaking vulgarities. this is a challenge for me. anyway i think all hope is still not lost yet. lets see if i can make a miracle. i must forward back yingbo the msg he sent me or even better. own him:D

2009-03-08T16:29:00.003+08:00

Let me decide what I want to do. I am old enough and I wish to decide for myself. If I can get 5As, I'm sure I'm not that stupid to make a wrong decision! Just trust me.

2009-03-07T01:02:00.003+08:00

i have survived my days of hell largely because of this. yet the feeling is still so weird. dunnoe how i was supposed to feel. happy? sad? i chose not to display any emotions.

6/1/09

2009-01-06T11:36:00.000+08:00

i got a pet. help me feed it when i am away. :D

25/12/08

2008-12-25T02:23:00.003+08:00

for once, i miss storyline. and house d. and my friends. and school.

17/12/08

2008-12-17T00:20:00.002+08:00

not really in a good mood since mon night. ok feeling much better as the day passes. much left to do but OK, i can do it:D BBQ below my house. ate a lot. my bro's fren drank all my vodka :( sianz life is damn boring

14/12/08

2008-12-14T02:07:00.002+08:00

for once, dota doesnt seem as fun. I am talking, talking and talking. haven talked so much for a while. learnt a lot. but also revealed a lot. to many people at the same time. Ok but this feels good somehow. cos these are ppl who trust me and whom i can trust. anyway this is really quite interesting.

11/12/08

2008-12-11T21:09:00.002+08:00

back frm holiday, ok i mean mindef internship. haha but it was so so imba. ok i dun think i shld say much abt it but it was eat, slp, eat (i didnt really pay attention, im sry). ok i got mistaken for a girl at camp and su jun tot we wanted to blanket party him and he didnt dare slp. ok cant say more le :D ok i had lots of time to think too. i tot abt quite a lot of stuff. Ok i think i shld really listen to my gd fren's advice since he is a pro. anyway i really wanted to do it le and what he told me really affirmed it. Anyway it has come to the pt where gd frens have to be separated. One's going army and the other is flying back. I guess its a new start and i will meet new frens further down the road but it has been a wonderful journey which im really grateful for. Even though i have been guilty of neglecting them at times, especially this yr when we kind of drifted apart abit but i know that in our hearts we are still wonderful frens. thx for everything and may life get better for all of us.

4/12/08

2008-12-04T17:07:00.019+08:00

back frm my hol in hainan island and prom. Below are the pics of my trip. Erm my previous blogskin had such a small screen so I decided to change it so its easier to see. (thank me ;D)

The first 4 are all of some temples. The 5th is taken at the botanical gardens

Sat cable car to some island where there are only monkeys! ok it was so cold when the cable car went over the mountains. anyway the monkeys are quite cute. the one above can do a slamdunk!

Night scene in san ya. Taken frm my hotel room. i stayed in 4 diff hotels in the 6 days. this is the taken frm the second hotel.

went to watch some performance on the third day. this is the one i like most. its some performance where the lady balances herself while adding chairs. its recorded in the guiness book of world records.

Romantic? too bad its not real. haha its one of the backdrop of the performance i watched.

my parents at some beach. (sry i have a bad memory, cant rmb the name)

some celebrities. there is marcus chin and cai li lian. ok my blog is now worth much more le XD

天涯海角--two pieces of rock. one of the most famous places of interest in hainan island

南海观世音

went this place twice. once in the afternoon and once the following morning. it was to 临时抱佛脚. Ok now i finally understand what that is le. haha.

Wa if i have this i would be rich! pure gold!
亚龙湾--nicknamed: 天下第一湾, another beach i went to.
thats about all i would like to upload. haha. lazy. this took me quite a while. Grad nite was ok. won a price (bonus haha). i think the price more ex than the cost of the grad nite ticket itself le whee:D

26/9/08

2008-11-26T20:13:00.002+08:00

there was no electricity today frm 9am to 5pm. i got so bored. no com, no fan, no tv. sucks. anyway im flying off tmr:D life is so boring nowaday. eat slp play jog. nth else to do. maybe life will have meaning after i come back. off to find meaning in my life seeya!

22/11/08

2008-11-22T01:16:00.003+08:00

Fucking pissed.
how retarded can a person get. y does he always act like he is boss. ok i fought with tt idiot.

yesterday (21st) hasnt been a good day at all. gotta be one of the worst days i have been through i guess. ok screwwed the interview. it was terrible

26/9/08

2008-09-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

a woman was reading this book on the bus. The book was describing 8 ways to be courageous which i thought was rather interesting so i peeped. Heres the content

Stay away from people with low confidence because they will drag you down with them
Go back to your core values eg your beliefs
.build up your confidence step by step

forgot the rest. anyway i wish i could feel this way:(

22/9/08

2008-09-22T11:24:00.002+08:00

oh great i think this blog skin rocks. wanted a crab one but shall make do with this. :D

This is a monodentate, a chelating agent!

This is a stronger monodentate and a ligand exchange reaction will occur!

k this is so random:D

1/8/08

2008-08-01T23:12:00.003+08:00

changed my blogskin. black and white is nice. describes my life. i shall not bother elaborating. important things first is to apologize. don't think it matters 'cos things werent gd to begin with but i have to say sry. it was my fault but i couldnt ctrl my temper.

sths i really wonder what is ahead of me in life. when everyone tells me how things are complicated, i really wonder: are things as complicated for myself. in the past few days, so many things have happened. i dunno what to say. the only thing i can do is to look ahead. i still have a long way to go.

lost twice to hann. :( maybe thrice or four times by nxt wk.

2008-07-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

2008-07-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

15/7/08

2008-07-15T22:00:00.003+08:00

finished dossiers. hate doing them. have a feeling i wrote loads of crap, especially for mine. erm my brain is really saturated. i dun even realize what time it is le and that my mum is home. so just told this person who called that she was out. then she called my mother's hp. omg im so stupid. gosh there are so many thing to do. i wonder how long i will take to finish everything.

was watching the 9 o clock show. had this scene which bore serious resemblance to sth which i have done many years back. i will regret it for the rest of my life but oh well life still goes on. ok dinner and heaps of work left.

2008-07-06T01:01:00.004+08:00

One day Yanut got killed by a demon. That was a tragedy.

The end.

Im sry i have been putting too much love into Yanut. Eh some people got jealous over it. Aww. k i must acknowledge other people in my life. eh could give the person a gd treat cos the person nevers gets any. Eh must also talk very well of the person. And i need to boost the confidence of the person to help him/her realize his/her wish. oh and Im scary cos i buy presents and mug gp. So from now on im not suppose to buy anymore present for our classmates. i cannot bring my gp book to sch. im suppose to continue doing badly for gp.

2008-06-27T21:41:00.003+08:00

Yanut was walking in the forest. Suddenly, he heard a loud call for help. He traced the calls to a clearing in the forest and saw a wounded old man lying on the ground, trying to back off from a ferocious demon. He immediately stepped forward to save the man. The demon was no match for him. He was about to kill the demon when the demon suddenly knelt down before him and begged him:" Please don't kill me, I promise not to kill any more people from now on!" Yanut hesitated. He said:" Fine, remember your promise." Then he walked away. He hadnt walked 300 metres when he suddenly heard the same scream. He immediately ran back to where he had come from and looked around the area. After a short search, he saw the demon feasting on the old man. He had chased the old man and killed him. He had even broken his promise. In a fit of anger, Yanut killed the demon in one hit. After that he sat down and cried. He had learnt his lesson. He realized that he had to be merciless when he dealt wth these beasts. He vowed never to repeat his mistakes again.

2008-06-02T09:06:00.002+08:00

Yanut woke up, half-dazed. Around him were his parents. He wept silently in his heart but vowed to exterminate all the evil in the world. Using his bare hands, he dug two graves and buried his parents. After that he left.

5 years later, Yanut was a grown up man. His occupation was demon hunting. The hatred for these evils forced him to go from town to town, killing them one by one. He had never lost to any demon, no matter how big or powerful they were. One day, he came across this big demon. He wanted to kill it. They engaged in a fierce battle for 1 day. The demon seemed to have unlimited stamina. Yanut was extremely tired. He knew he could not survive. The demon give him a blow and he fell to the ground. He thought he was going to die. As the demon advanced towards him, he was reminded of his painful past, but was there anyone to save him now? suddenly, a woman appeared out of nowhere. She fought with the demon. Yanut took the chance to run away. He ran for a long time until he reached a lake where he took a rest there. It was there that he realized that he had left his savior with the demon. He felt ashamed of himself and realized that he should have helped the woman(and died with her if need be). Now, he didnt know if the woman was alive or dead. Then a woman appeared in front of her. The woman was dressed in white. She was an angel. On closer examination, Yanut realized that she was the woman just now
. He immediately went down on his knees and beg for her forgiveness at his timidity. To his surprise, the woman said: " what is wrong with being fearful of your life? what is wrong with wanting to survive? You did the right thing. The most important thing is to stay alive! Anyway, I am an angel. I have seen your heroic acts and decided to help you today. I shall help you even more by granting you god strength. With that, she tapped her wand on him. Then she gave him a word of advice: " Use them wisely!" before she vanished.

2008-05-30T09:19:00.002+08:00

In the woods of the forest, there laid a boy, Yanut. Around him were the corpses of his parents. They were trekking through the forest when they met a horned demon. The demon wanted to eat them up. The demon was 3 times their size. it had three yellow eyes. It's first target was Yanut. Yanut was extremely frightened. He could only watch as the demon advanced towards him. The demon swung its paws(or whatever that hideous body part of it was). Just as it was about to hit him, his mother threw her body forward n fended off that blow for him. That blow was so powerful that she died instantly. The demon was angry and it made its second move towards Yanut. This time, his father defended him. He pushed Yanut away and tried to fight the demon with his woodcutter's axe. However, he severely wounded with one blow of the demon's paw. The last words Yanut heard were: "Live on, Son. Our blood lies in you. Remember, we died for you." Yanut immediately ran and hid in one of the bushes, still shocked and frightened from the trauma. From where he was, he saw the demon pulling the intestines out of her mother and started to feast on them. Anger overcame him. He was NOT going to let that demon eat his mother. Summoning all his courage, he took his father's axe and with all his might, chopped off the demon's leg. That was not all, he turned berserk and hack the demon 1,2,3,.... (lost count) times. And finally, exhausted from his beligerent attack, he collasped on the floor in fatigue.

Tired

2008-03-25T21:56:00.002+08:00

ok im waiting for the elects in the campaign grp im in charge of to come online. free and bored so decide to post this blog. there was suppose to be one before this but my internet explorer 'had some problem and needed to shut down' so i didnt post it. er anyway its about the reflection for the cip (which is unimpt). wa this week is quite a tiring week. have been very tired these few days. i wonder why. could be cos of the dry run. anyway that is no good:( rather not sleep at all. as vishwa says: you waste half your life sleeping or muhd says: i sleep two hours a day. lolx so much more that i can do with the extra time. er quite lucky today. :D more stuff to think about. more work to do. more energy i have to channel. more i have to focus. reading that thaddeus book since i already bought it.

ok time to be random. life should be full of surprises. can be good or bad. makes it more interesting. just like how my campaign grp discussing about some theme which i find quite amusing. er but i think my theme might have been equally amusing to others then. ha it feels gd to have been there done that and look at others do it now. wa im so bored now. haha stuck in a msn convo with three elects. looking forward to more surprises tmr. i like to imagine myself in lots of different scenerios and what would i do then. haha its what you call building sandcastles in the air or stone. imagine one day the things really happen to me. ok i just concluded that all of the above that i have typed is nonsense. im just so so so bored. maybe tmr i will pick up an ipod from the ground. maybe i will lost my wallet. maybe i will get a white slip? ok let me think of more stuff to waste more time. fine i shall post it

2008-03-21T16:21:00.003+08:00

cts over. all too soon. what a pity. was getting used to the hardcore studying. life is not much better after cts. u just have much more to do. and certainly cts was a bad experience. its the worse i have ever felt after taking an exam. rather worrying. been slacking for the whole of yest n today. shit, hate this. many other things to consider. need to reset my directions in life le. this is bad

Drama Fest

2008-02-24T15:24:00.004+08:00

It is finally over. Yay!
The past few weeks have been torturous. The daily rehearsals and the stacks of homework to be done. Everyday i fell asleep on the table thinking of homework. The fatigue caught up with me during that bio lecture. Time slowly crawled by and i just gave up listening to that boring DIY plant growing session and put my head on the table waiting for the last five minutes and i got caught by the teacher. Not to mention the econs essay i had to write. The tests which i struggled through. The SPA i fell asleep doing. Pack that all into one lump and add in the nagging from our dear daniel sim bugging me for programme booklets, biodata, posters, house boards. I just wanted to say: GOSH ALL THIS IS OVER.

I may miss it. I may miss all the fun and stress of going through the whole process. The stupidity(forgot to bring our props down during dry run, Claire sweeping the stuff down the stage, Shi Yang and his vulgarites, auyong and his weird dances, the many 'og' outings to buy dinner for the cast,screwed up bridge with woonie, marilene and yijun and everything else. The flowers from them and most importantly, the memories. Even though we didn't win anything, I am so proud of all of them. Would like to thank my sm for being there at every rehearsal since he took over stanley. Asm for always staying until so late for every rehearsal even though she has to wake up at 4.30 every day.(and i really think she is a very strong girl considering her family background which i only got to know of recently). All the cast for being there at the rehearsals and staying until so late, especially after the dry run. The crew for the good job they have done especially yesterday where we moved the stuff in and out in record time. lights and sounds for doing a wonderful job and make up people for helping out. not to forget the ushers.

ok back to my normal life

2008-02-16T00:29:00.002+08:00

Haven posted for a long while. Nothing much to say anyway. experienced lots of different emotions this few weeks.

There was the disappoint at my failure draft. The anger at that fatty who eavesdropped on our tatics, the happiness at our conquest of CS, the fatigue from days of rehearsals, stress coming frm h1 h2 h3 and cca and many many more.

Guess this is my life. i would die of boredom not having anything to do.

been thinking about a lot of stuff as well.

Tot of what i was trying to achieve with my past actions. realize serves no purpose so changed it the next day when opportunity came.

Thought of my future. Its so dark ahead. Haven really figured out what i really wan to do. It's really fascinating how i suddenly not like math as much and bio much more now. might affect my course in uni. hmm haven really tot abt it enuf but i promised to.

thought of the revoltion within the class itself. our class is just different now. cant really say past or present suits me better. Some stuff were indeed better in the past but some things seem to rock more now. either way gotta find out more abt everything first

tot of my resolution. i am totally working against it. Things just happened different from what i would expect. i think i will not be able to do it but it may not be the best way too but i shld restrain myself.

Tot of the many academic barriers: the spa, tests, and others like drama fest.however nth will deter me. I shall lead a wonderful life then.

nite(loads of rubbish at the end cos falling aslp but content shld have been covered)

2008-01-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

stress.
time.
hope.

Sometimes you have to let go to see what is it you were holding on to.

This is a story of a girl, a girl like you, a girl like me. It is a story of how she died and what happens to the people she leaves behind.

Three lives brought together by the death of one girl.

Let go – for there’s beauty in the breakdown.

My Choice

2008-01-21T22:02:00.001+08:00

I have decided to do a lot more. What i wanted to do since that day. Perserverance! i will do itt. This year is gonna be different. Motivation drives me on, keeps me alive. Its a rough path to the greatest heights but happiness is the key to success!

2008-01-13T23:10:00.001+08:00

Orientation has been more than just a memory. MT05 is really great. Even at the expense of my voice and health. felt really sick but i would not miss orientation just cos of that. Kinda wish i had more time with them. Life is so much tougher now. Have to face the terrible things which i would rather not think about nor face.

storyline is another thing that i miss. the daily rehearsals. the fun, the horror, the funny moments and the boring and tiring parts of it. wasnt very well performed. could have be much better. most of it was tech but some of it was really our fault. i made a mistake too. if we had one more chance we know much could have been improved. Daniel was really disappointed. anyway all of us still did a great job. love all of ya as much as my og. shall get the pictures frm ally and post it soon. don't want to lose em. esp with this lousy noob com which is seriously gettin on my nerves.

House party nxt wk. hope everything goes well. biggest event of our term. gotta make it good. at the expense of everything else. ok thats it. i shall be happy!

2008-01-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hope is a waking dream.

Imagination rules the world.

You control your own destiny.

Dare to be remarkable.

2007-12-08T23:53:00.001+08:00

2007-11-19T18:07:00.000+08:00

我们的歌

歌手：王力宏 专辑：改变自己

已经听了一百遍
怎么听都不会倦
从白天唱到黑夜
你一直在身边(一直在身边)

如果世界太危险
只有音乐最安全
带着我进梦里面
让各自都实现

无论是开心还是难过
我的爱一直不变

不论是hiphop还是摇滚
我的爱一直不变
所有美好回忆记录在里面
这张forever love那么深
我们的歌那么真
不过界跨时代
再不会叫kissgoodbey
有没有一句能够动人心弦
ye ye

情人总分分合合
可是我们却越爱越深
认识你让我的幸福
如此悦耳

能不能不要记得
继续唱我们的歌
让感动一辈子都记得

苏打绿 - 无与伦比的美丽

天上风筝在天上飞
地上人儿在地上追
你若担心你不能飞
你有我的蝴蝶

天上风筝在天上飞
地上人儿在地上追
我若担心我不能飞
我有你的草原

耶～耶～
你形容我是这个世界上
无与伦比的美丽

耶～耶～
我知道你才是这世界上
无与伦比的美丽

天上风筝在天上飞
地上人儿在地上追
你若担心你不能飞
你有我的蝴蝶
嘿啊~嘿啊~

against the odds

2007-10-30T21:13:00.000+08:00

arghh. stupid sinus. just hope it doesnt affect me tmr. just like u are not going to affect me. i cant stand your incessant rubbish. i missed all my practices cos of your irritation but that is not going to stop me. i shall find my own timing. you don't understand me and i don't care. U think im a useless and lazy bum and would rather waste my time using the computer which you only associate with games rather than go find work. yet do i have a choice? Do you think i would not want money? how long haven you not given me money? u think i go out to party everyday? u think im practicing my script for fun?

arghh. bring me away from my unhappiness. jiayou for OP everyone:D

2007-10-30T01:03:00.000+08:00

It gets really irritating when everything happens together. What could be worse when you are listening to this irritating 'song' which you try to drown with your own song, doing self and peer evaluation for dossier and thinking about PW at the same time. arghh. gosh I was not even thinking logically when i was typing the evaluations. PW dry runs are very draining or am i just tired? Holidays seem to be much the same as school days. I still feel equally tired. Tired of everything. I just wish to be left alone maybe, away from home, away from school, away from everything that is bothering me.

hmm. Why did i just type that? I must be so bored. Left my script at Carolyn's house. I cant practice today so shall sleep early. ok early for me, its quite late le.

Start of hols

2007-10-27T03:22:00.001+08:00

330 now, gr8 i am still awake. last time i tried this was during promos study period.

oh well today is the last day of sch technically. mixed emotions. in the morning zhi wen seemed a bit pissed then i was puzzled when he suddenly came to apologize. well there are always such misunderstandings when people think i am angry. ok but this was an even smaller issue so thats that.

then this teacher kind of screw up the day. ok our. The teacher was so kaypoh that he just wrote some stupid comments which were absolutely redundant in my gd fren's report card. then he is so useless that he doesnt even bother abt the CIP stuff that i asked him. he told us to go do sth ourself. cant believe how lazy he is. nvr tells us anything. we dun even noe which classroom to go to in the morning nor do we know that there is no lessons until we ask him. after sch we were standing there n he looked at us and said: i know what you are thinking, i am not going to return your cards. FINE. take it then. keep it for ur gf. your life must be so boring so much so that my cards shall make it more interesting. n he forces us to lie and say we are going to study during hols. ... lucky i didnt make that promise to him

after sch sat down with yingbo vanessa and carolyn and we were discussing the change in cliques in our class. haha realized that much has evolved to reach the present cliques there are now.

spent the remainder of the time playin c ball before goin with Dao Jie Harold Yi Heng Jason and Winston for lunch/dinner at seoul garden. had a gd chat too:D think Dao Jie leads a very interesting life and 4E is such a rocker class:D

after tt junyi joined me n rold and we went to esplanade to stone. took cab home and the driver was vulgar that i think he spoke as much vulagirities as the three of us. n he had the habit of repeatin himself but well, he was entertaining and he didnt doze off so thats better.

ok im quite tired. was even falling aslp playing dota. dunno y im even playing when im not even interested in the game at all jus now. but anyway hols are jus hols so its eat slp n feed. see ya ppl. have a fun time:D

tired

2007-10-24T22:57:00.001+08:00

hey hey
too tired to tell u what i want to say.
nvm
u can read my mind.
y y and y?
y dun u reply?
y am i suddenly involved in the fight?
good nite!
im so tired of everything! arghhhh

ARGH

2007-10-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

horrible day. started in sch. results werent all that gr8. after receiving first 3, was just waiting for the last 2 when LCM said to me: y are u so complacent? wanted to tell him WTF? i didnt even do well for the first 3 taken back n u say im complacent? ok i ctrled myself. last 2 was quite ok anyway. then had to be involved in this mess whereby im not involved but ppl come asking me whats wrong and try to threaten me. am i supposed to tell ppl the truth? y they derserved to be hated? am i supposed to pretend nth happened when i get threatened? are they suppose to jus pretend they forgot they said sth? n then everyone startin poppin random qns at me? ok just a small matter but every small thing jus seems to add up. ok cont being petty. still got ppl who did better than me and yet come tell me abt it? ok wasnt really supposed to mean that way but u try adding that to that stupid reflection which im busy tryin to fuckin lie abt? y am i even wasting my time lyin abt other ppl when i dun even see wat use they have?

ok shall find happiness in techies. its such a fun hero where u go arnd committing suicide and killing other ppl. then u can plant mines to bomb ppl somemore. ok the fir song is damn emo. shall stop listening to it

BBQ session

2007-10-21T18:24:00.001+08:00

O team bbq outing at pasir ris park. our pit was some secluded pit right at the end so we walked for goodness knows how long before we got there. had quite a lot of fun playing sports. after that i just sat down with lowell and food came to us directly:D. mus thank yonghan, chinkz, nigel, ivan, syaz, jasper , jia jia and many more people for feeding me. haha ok i love bbqs. the food is so nice.

went ashvin hse to watch rugby. took a cab there. the driver was so retarded. we spent dunno how long arguing how to get to ashvin's hse. he wasnt satisfied when ashvin said give directions when we reach clementi. haha. then the driver was dozing off when we were on the cab then we were damn scared. he even press the honk! omg we could have died. lolx luckily we got there safetly(n very ex).

it was an all-ruggers stayover(except me). ok i dun usually hang out with rugger but it was quite fun. we ended up tokin abt other ppl( ok call it gossip then and ashvin was damn angry over the _____which _____ will die!) oh there was christian anwaar justin me kevin and ashvin. haha justin was damn funny. when we watchin soccer, he started to tell us: i think everyone on the field is trying to score a goal. lolx then we watchin ruby, then he was telling us abt the different brands of boots each player was wearing.

in conclusion tired but happy. no reason to be sad anyway. results better be gd!

:(

2007-10-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

boring day. sch is just so boring nowadays. finished my entire pack of sour worms today. n its such a big pack so u could have imagine how slowly time passed. after sch was worse cos got 2.5 hrs more to spare. stoned my time away. slpt in the canteen and played some games to while the time away. GM was equally boring and i think i ate more worms then than in the morning. we seemed to be talking abt stuff that didnt concern us at all. zzz.

we were damn unhappy. how could everyone else do that to us? at first it was just a clash of ideas. gr8 minds do think alike. but the attitude was horrible. even i couldnt take ti. it seriously pissed us off. so we sat down and discussed our plans to fight. and so we will fight, for our rights. its something we must do. i will stand up for us all too. everyone else u all watch out!

进退两难

2007-10-14T22:57:00.001+08:00

actually everything was very simple for all of u. its jus that u all decided to make it complex. . sry i have to say this but hope it helps :D

firstly u: u noe who u really care abt. u dun wan anyone to hurt the person as u said. yet u were indecisive right at the very start. if u had muster enuf courage to say no to the other person. if that person had not entered ur life n disrupted the chemistry bet u two, everything would have been smooth sailing. then now, u still care as much, yet u dare not voice it out. finally u hope u summon enuf courage to put a stop to ur 绊脚石，and not 藕断丝连.

u: u care jus as much. there was such a period of time where i didnt even think u were u. could see the love in u that was pushin u on even though u were so tired. yet u are jus afraid to voice it out too. at one pt in time u were so high, yet now y are u hiding in the shadows, afraid to show urself. i sincerely wish i can help u but u have to stand up for urself. its no use hiding foreva. be true to urself.

n u: i dunno what is goin on but i think ur imagination is goin wild. actually u shld have known right frm the start that everything was goin nowhere yet u chose to put ur foot into everything. its really hard to hear the words directly from a person but u shld have understood it. forget all the rumours that i heard were made up. its time u understand that one has to make a choice and someone will suffer. will u rather two ppl suffer if one made the wrong choice or jus person suffer?长痛不如短痛, its time u all come to a conclusion.

let me share with all of u this quote from this wonderful book i am readin: he who overcomes sorrow shall be free of sorrow. happiness is what we choose to be.

may all of us be as happy. and really sry i have to say this but this shld be clear to all of u right now.

:D

2007-10-10T23:09:00.001+08:00

ok i just found out what is eden. HAHAHA. ok got lots of stuff to do so to the point. l think that there are couple of misunderstandings going on around. erm well sometimes 旁观者清, i guess so gotta say some words abt it. a bit kaypoh but hopefully it helps:D erm things are sths not as complicated and stressful as we may perceive it to be. Sometimes silence doesnt mean only mean consent. silence is just another way for people to pause and consider exactly what we are thinking so. there are some questions which do not need to be answered and some things need not be stated explicitly.

"no matter what, i hope we are still good frens............
being here for someone and not giving up on someone can be between good frens too"
-anonymous

ok hope u understand this:D oh n yes btw things may not be as u think. there is sth called status quo which kinds of explains the situation for u all. ok nite

OPOPOPOPOPOP

2007-10-07T18:45:00.000+08:00

elaine 'forced' me to buy a postcard during openhse. ok i think this one is nice

this song is nice too:D
http://youtube.com/watch?v=CkBOE37cXlk

i told a lie today. omg cant believe i had to resort to this but anyway sry ______ i had to do this. haha i pretended i didnt know anything but i do.

a conglomerate of ideas

2007-09-29T08:41:00.000+08:00

heres a short summary of promos. its like an info overload and hell lots of stress for each paper.

GP essay was not so bad but had to censor some of my tots. forgot some too. arghh. compre was horrible. globalization brings us closer together but it doesnt give me more time to do my aq. arrrgghhh.

For the econs paper, it was a serious measure of opp cost. when i was doing one qn, i had to do a CBA and decide if i was going to write some stuff or skip it to move on to the nxt section. i tried to be productive efficient and allocative efficient so hopefully can do well?

bio was when i had hoped that my brain underwent alternative splicing to become smarter and my right hand could undergo binary fission so can write at Q10 X speed with lots of enhancers. just hope that there is natural selection in my answers!

maths was a brain teaser. i was calculating the probability of my getting the right answers cos there was a whole ton of choices of answers. so its like a P&C, especially on the P&C qn(which i think i got wrong). then i couldnt differentiate bet the right method and the wrong one nor could i integrate my IQ with my nervous system.

chem was gg. didnt had time to think so i jus spammed. time passed like an explosive reaction proportionate to K[the time u spend to do one qn]^10. so it was like a reaction of order 10. horrible. then i completely didnt understand that equimolar qn. stupid thing.

ok i think im gettting mixed up with all the subjects.
is pi equals to 3.142 or a bond or a food?
when the qn asks you how does an enzyme speed up a reaction do you write cos it provides an alternative pathway of lower energy or the mode of actions of enzymes?

untitled

2007-09-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

I could not think of a title so I did not put any. Last post before promos.

lol my mother was trying to find out what that present on my table was. then she guessed it was some underwear. arh but its not mine anyway. then she saw that towel thingy that cheryl gave me recently for my bdae(which was ages ago) which was quite embarrassing. arh well nvm forget abt it. im just too bored after studying, don't even know what i am typing.

hope everyone can do well together. esp me, i can hardly wait for it all to end. haiz no one can ever finish studying, at least i read the lecture notes. im not some superwoman who can do 9 topics of bio in one day anyway or some superman who can finish bio in two days. :D jia you everyone then. anyway i just realized how fun studying can be if we only need to study one topic. imagine u staying at home for the whole day and you only need to study one topic. wow how much time do you have left to slack around? ok thats not reality. time to study then. night. take care everyone.

Time

2007-09-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

time is such an important thing to us.

to all the people i care about:

to those having serious family problems of any types:
take care, treasure time. and also hope time can heal the pain. most importantly, stay happy.(try doing maths:D)

to those stressed over pw/ promos/ personal or a summation of all these:
u need lots of time. but time reflects scarcity. but have confidence in yourself. " stand tall, stand proud, voices that care are crying out loud"

to those stressed over personal stuff:
dun worry. no one is putting any pressure on you. do things the way you like it and everyone(inlcuing me) will be supportive of you. remember, your friends will always be there for you, cos they care about you. :D

ok i shall go study now. night!

2007-09-14T00:22:00.000+08:00

mon: pw
tues: pw
wednesday: pw
thurs: pw
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.
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life is just fun with pw. wonder if i will miss it after its over. ok i think i shld not blog abt my life but an issue today. let me blog abt the first issue that comes to my mind. ok i tot of the topic le

Why is saving the earth important(lolx)?

1.The earth needs help. Man are using scarce resources faster than the earth can replace them. For example, man are depleting earth's source of drinkable water. At the rate we are going to run out of water to do. I will die without any drinks. I want my soya bean, plain water, ice lemon tea, teh bing and so on. If Man do not save water, i will have none to drink so man should save water.

2. People are releasing CFCs, car exhaust fumes and lots of smelly disgusting gases that pollutes the air and damages our ozone layer. That is horrible! This results in my sinus getting worse when i smell these gases. Also, since the ozone layer is damaged, the sun's UV rays are now less reflected. We are at higher risk of cancer. Therefore as both can result in my earlier death, overall utility of the people decreases and so man should save the earth.

3. The earth is where we belong. In order for me to continue having a place to live on and enjoy myself, man must make sure that the earth is not destroyed or I will lose my natural habitat. I therefore think that Man should save the earth.

Since there are such great benefits of saving the earth(for me), i therefore propose the following methods.
1. Consult Hu Ching, the chairman of One Earth Club. His expertise in the issue of saving the earth will enlighten you. You can even choose to join One earth Club or take part in its activities which have been carefully planned by him. If you wish to contact him, you can do so by email. His email is fabienrules@hotmail.com. (P.S no spams please.)

2.Next, you can tag on my blog to support my cause to save the earth. Everything starts with a plan. My plan is to talk about it first before i do anything.

3. Ultimately, if you love the earth, all you have to do is to think to yourself that you are loving it and you want to save it and it should be fine:D

ok. i feel so much better after talking so much rubbish. pls take everything i said above to heart. thx n nite:D

PW drama

2007-09-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

pw has turned into a drama lately. justin and his corny jokes.
1.
kenny: go away la!
justin:

2.
vanessa: there are some parts that need to be straightened for our pw
joseph: dun xiang wai wai hor
justin: i thinking of pw

haha pw better be worth all the efforts. went carolyn's house today. ok every hse seems to be a new experience. haha carolyn's house is cool in a different way. i think its very clean. haha but the toilets have no privacy at all. lolx u can peep in directly through the window. haha ok can close the windows but still... haha anyway we had fun slacking more than work. oops im slacking now. ok jiayou to all pw-hardcoring grps. most imptly mine:D

ok i decided not to tell my story of the elements. postpone it to nxt time. nite

BYE BYE HOLS

2007-09-09T22:19:00.000+08:00

sianz. one week passes so quickly. and i was just getting used to sleeping and waking up late. haiz. come to think of it, it also means the exams are drawing nearer and nearer. hai hai. no time to finish studying le. er ok but i have never finished studying before. haha. ok but this time is different. the expectations are high. the aim is to reach the summit. :D so got hard work to put in le.

anyway i guess i have been slacking the weekends. spend one whole day mugging one chapter? something is wrong with me. ok yesterday was the worse. went with my mother for some interview which totally bored me. then reach home n slacked a long while. watched half of this show "cashback". it was quite crappy cos the show is abt this guy who can stop time. basically it is a biography of his life. the show itself is very lame and i didnt understand wth it was trying to show cos' there was this part abt a street soccer match and they lost like 26-0 or sth. haha(lame right?) ok but i think the last part was quite touching. the guy had some exhibition and all the pictures(which i think he drew) were pictures of this girl that he loved. then she came. he told her to trust him n they kissed. then at that moment he stopped time for the two of them. he brought her outside where it was snowing so you can see snow stuck in the air. then they kissed again. oh i tot the scenery was quite only for that part. haha so if you watch that movie u might wan a cashback. haha. oh yes yesterday i watched soccer n rugby too so didnt study much.

then today my mother scolded me suddenly say i always hide in my room, close the door n play my bro's psp late at night. haha which is not true:D. ok but i only studied for half the time im in the room anyway. the other half spent doing some other stuff(lolx if you know what im talking abt u know if not u dun.XD) er yes n i have been eating a hell lot of stuff too. you just get hungry when you are mugging. n whee my mother just bought lots of ice cream. theres this ice cream sales for kings. the ice cream are sold at half price. the cheapest one only 20 cents loh. haha ok i shall eat more of it. ok i go study now. sry but my brain is not functioning properly now my thoughts are all scattered. see ya anyway

Happy

2007-09-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

long day in sch. long long long. early in the morning reach sch n yuanz was already there. earlier than me. haha in the end she waited super long for everyone to come wrap audrey's present. then wen jun go send audrey off to lt6. lolx which i felt was rather dumb cos she could have just sat next to us while they wrapped. anyway made all of us late for the chem test. but it didnt matter cos the test was like some brain teaser. haiz i forgot the formula for apparent molecular mass. then i realized that that topic was the one i studied from 12 to 3. haiz APPARENTly i was half aslp so i guessed i didnt register anything inside. so must be smart and choose subjects that do not require much brain space le. oh 3am mugging is super effective pls. imagine u mug until 3 then u "slack" until 5 and u go slp. then u wake up at 10am and u still don't feel tired. that means u save lots of time to mug! anyway i died for the test which totally worries me given that i spent super long mugging for it. don't have more time to mug le if i go according to my schedule for mugging. haiz who tell me mug so slow loh.

after sch went lunch. wouldnt have mind watching movie. but no hairspray so nvr spray. eat le went home. reach home so sianz just gave up and lied on the bed. not sure if i feel aslp. ok my intention was to slp but i guess i only slpt a while. didnt even felt like i had closed my eyes at all loh.

mug a lot after that with the radio on. not bad, the radio got quite nice songs today. then there was this discussion on what is happiness. some sec one girl go wrote some emo letter in asking what is happiness and how to be happy. then there were some answers like happiness is what u choose to be, forgetting everything that happens and being happy always, going to sleep and waking up to be happy. hmm then i was reminded of alfred renyi's quote abt being happy doing maths. haha. i guess happiness is a mixture of everything. most importantly its your own choice. yes im happy cos i want to be happy:D. what about you who's reading my post? cheer up if you are not and continue being happy if you are.

ok must thank back the person who thanks you. thank you valerie for thanking me. erm someday i might kill you cos you whole day talking abt channel u. in case u don't know channel u viewship quite low. not spontaneous! haha yes thanks for your nonsense irritating comments and we shall study hard and do well for gp together. yes we wont be the bottom two anymore !

arh my bro went out. go pub again. think he's obsessed with drinking. haha he drinks hard liquor somemore. i told him: don't destroy your liver hor. he say he nvr hardcore. oh well he siao la. anyway i don't think i should drink. its supposed to make my ET get worse. ok stress also. sucks hate ET but at least it doesnt kill me:D i don't want to die so young loh!

2007-09-02T23:51:00.000+08:00

voldmort died. harry potter lived happily ever after. :D

aiyoyo. was so tired on fri. brain a bit screwwed. head aching like its aching a lot. anyway pw was super super imba. we worked like whatever works a lot. vanessa's house got three coms so we tanked it three at a time. carolyn was totally imba. she didnt leave her seat at all. haha i was falling aslp. cos i didnt slp much on thurs? haha. played bridge at half time. owns vanessa didnt know what she was playing. didnt know who her partner was even after the game ended. haha. after that continued. ate all the oranges on the table cause i "dirtied" it when the juice spurted out while i was eating one?haha but it still didnt stop me from falling aslp. haiz then i tried to do my maths assignment. which was horrible because i did all the questions wrongly. blame it on my headache or lack of confidence or stupidity or all of everything. quite worrying cause promos is coming? oh dear. ok in the 60th minute, kenny came on as a sub. 90th minute: yes we are done. but justin was trying to save it and the com crashed! ggxx. we started praying. 93th minute: alright the com can retrieve the file. we are saved. pw is done and sent to gabby le. hope for the best and went for dinner.

reach home with half a brain n just slpt like sth that sleeps a lot. yesterday did some crappy blogging and played lots of dota. quite worrying considering promos is just round the corner. haiz cant imagine me wasting three weeks of my time preparing for exams and one week on exams. its so stupid. JC life sucks. ok if nothing else is going right, liverpool is going all the way. whee they won 6-0. torres was all over the place. alonso was cunning. babel was amazing. voronin has a long leg(kser!). haha ok nice to watch them win. man u abit lucky with their win. haha

today was rather stupid. wasted a hell of a time trying to do a gp essay. in the end realised that i read the question wrongly. so i just crushed it up and threw it aways. aww then tried studying some chem but nothing seems to be going in. alright need to rebuild my confidence le. ok i remember this imba quote
" If I am unhappy, i do maths to become happy. If i am happy, i do maths to keep happy." --Alfred Renyi

ok i must keep doing maths le. owns. which still reminds me that i haven done any. ok i go do one qn for maths tutorial later.

when you are gone by avril lavigne is imba nice. lolx me joshua wench all listening to it. yinghui sent it to me. personally i don't listen to english songs but i think this one is very nice:D. ok soon the whole class can listen to it le. owns! oh dear ran our of stuff to say le. shit this essay is a bit too short. cant beat zs. ok no choice let me crap some stuff out.ok its 1235 my brother is not back home yet. my second bro went back to camp. im hungry. eating this muffin that my mother brought home from her yellow ribbon project walk today. erm if our learning journey was to the prison might have been today:D. ok im very bored at home. studying is totally hopeless when you have a brother playing games/songs behind you on his com plus another bro playing in the living room plus you have trembling hands. will i die cos of that? arghh. the only thing i want to do now is to play/watch movie/sleep/eat/slack. cant see studying or mugging anywhere nearby lei. kill me pls. i will fail my promos with flying colours.

ok really really really nth to write le. zs hope this is long enuf. n hope wench has finished dling the song from joshua so we can play together.

Mug

2007-09-01T09:00:00.000+08:00

PW done
voldemort nearly dead
hw nearly done
enuf slp
lots of time
focussed
--As--

Haiz

2007-08-29T21:26:00.001+08:00

father:去冲凉啦，不然衣服没得洗。
Mother: (to me) le deng cu mao zang zui, sar bui hiao sway tio ZA ZANG la. sar bui hiao gai gi sway meh? ke qiu arh? qiu ke arh.......................blah blah blah
Brother:....(not talking to mother)
Me: think to myself (mai cha la zzzz)

SRY Zhi Wen, you didnt say anything but could tell from the disappointment in your voice.
SRY Jie Ning, you said you feel bad you pang seh me sometimes. now i did that to you twice. you didnt say anything too but can sense the angst in your voice
SRY Grace, you didnt say anything too which is worst cos you usually angst a lot. Heard you were terrible yesterday.
basically sry to MT then. period.

read a bit of harry potter today. ok read a lot. one more horcrux left before voldemort dies. haha. he deserves to die! no mood to do much work. procrasting until now still haven done eom, died. wish i had spattergroit. (lolx apparently yonghan yinghui mingcher and jingli dunno what that is, had fun teasing them along with wench!)
EOM: by hook or by crook, have to finish it by today
SLP or Study for bio Test: one at the opp cost of the other
sleep is useless cos fri is effectively not a day so one more day. wont die without a day's sleep(proven)
studying is equally useless cos when you are half dead, nth goes into your brain. no mood to study anyway. the test is stupid considering bacteria and viruses are CT topics. ask LCM to finish his tutorials first please.
Play game: heavy urge to play. the amt of satisfaction derived is variable depending on how well i play. Dota is fun but do i have the time?

er hope you see this big and clear. you are always trying to keep yourself fit by running away. how much faster than me can you run? why cant you just tell me the truth instead of bottling everything or let me find out myself. haiz maybe i need some Veritasrum. since you don't like me to do anything i shall not do anything. hope everyone can be happy this way then. CHEERS!

alright EOM im tanking you now!

highlight the whole thing below!

2007-08-28T20:42:00.001+08:00

sianz. as if homework is not enough to kill me. piles of homework like eom, bio tut, chem tut, econs essay, maths assgmnt and tut plus the extra prac i gotta do for gp. add in one more dumb postponed useless bullshit test on thurs and h3 tmr = havoc craziness madness.

ok wait y am i complaining? its wasting time. just an excuse. ok i hate excuses. shldnt be making them up for myself. ok no time to think le. sidetracked for 5mins to type this nonsense post le anyway. Nite

welcome back!

2007-08-25T23:06:00.001+08:00

haven blogged for a long time. feeling rather bored so i decided to try if my blog works. erm apparently it does now(last time i type le nth comes out so i stopped blogging) so i just decided to start again=D. its quite fun to blog. esp when u have people to bitch about! yes so to satisfy myself i shall write an essay today! hope everyone who reads this will be very excited!

this wk was a horribly long wk!(ok now its the wkends, i wish this wk will never end!) anyway we had class camp on mon n tue. was looking forward to skipping sch n test for two days but it werent very fun anyway. we walk a lot but we didnt exactly get anywhere. butterfly park was crappy and chek jawa was zzzzzzzzz. ok cooking was one of the more fun things to do(ok fine i didnt cook), but carrying the stupid can filled with water was no laughing matter. was trembling terribly after carrying it back to camp. had some song-singing session at night, played some games( hurray push-up poker rox!) then slack around. i didnt feel like slping so i was just looking at the stars. eventually the stars covered the sky so left with nth to watch. but the mosquitoes were so irritating, lucky sandflies didnt kill me. had a long long talk=D

life after camp just got worse. i was half aslp at council rant. then everyone tot i was angry after i made some stupid comment. then after rant, ally and grace thought i was angry and stormed off just cause i had to put stuff in my locker. arghh then i decided from now on i must not give people false impression anymore. everyone: u shall see the true me from now on ok!XD

thursday was quite scary. its like the aftermath of the camp. everyone equally tired(some worried and scared). got chem mock. blah blah blah the day dragged on and i just wished to escape from school cos so many things were happening at the same time. made me rather uncomfortable

flunked h3 test period. was so tired that day too. not worth staying up to study anyway. nearly died in class(which was super long with two extra lessons).

today was quite scary too. mt rant was scary. ally was quite bad to ashvin. dunno somehow emotions just ran wild. ok but i clarified with them that i wasnt angry with them on thurs loh, so proud of myself please. aces day dance = ggxx. dont ask me to dance on mon please. think i have to pon pe. cos i cant show people how to dance when i haven even mastered it(n its gay pls).
after that went to grandma house to celebrate! whee haven seen my relatives for so long. ok we gambled and i lost but thats secondary. i think we are quite a big and happy family!

i was happy. ok thats because i straightened out my thoughts! this few days the same words have been ringing in my ears: "she's doing better than you!" then i realized that i should do better! so i realized what i shall do from now on le. must say happy always! i will be as good as you!=D